Cross Country Trip Field Notes: Day Four

I am sitting right now on a section of sandy beach on Lake Michigan that is accessed just behind a great little neighborhood park just blocks from Uncle Nassir and Aunt Shamela's apartment building in down town Chicago. We rode the bus down Michigan Avenue this morning and had brunch at the American Girl Place Cafe. Then, we spent the bulk of the day at the Field Museum. On days like today I think I could be happy living in a big city, trading a yard and big home for busy streets and cultural experiences, fabulous architecture and nice parks.

The girls are happily wading in the water and digging in the sand after playing pirates on the play ground. The park is full of picnickers and people shooting off bottle rockets. If we decide to tonight we can watch fireworks over Navy Pier from the balcony. It does make me wonder a bit how I will feel about life in Boise Idaho, especially since my greatest challenge in Manassas was feeling like I was too far from the amenities of DC.

Today, I awoke from a dream in which I was looking for a new home in Boise. It was a weird dream, complete with ruling out a neighborhood where the homes were too small but amazing cottages that looked like they came out of Fantasyland at Disneyland. But, odd as it was, it left me feeling anxious about finding the right place to live, and even more, about the fact that despite increased interest, we still have not sold our house. I feel like we are doing the right thing and all will work out well, but I so wanted to have a contract on our home by the time Jeffrey and I got to Boise to house hunt, and now I have only 4 more days left.

I have to admit that today I feel worried. I want so much to be able to be settled by the time Jeffrey starts work and the girls start school at the end of August.

I have had great peace in my heart, but today I have fear. I wish I didn't, but it is just where I am at.