Moderation in All Things

Moderation is not my forte. I tend to want to do life in an all or nothing way. An approach that often increases my stress and creates guilt! Even over silly things.

I was talking recently with a woman here in Boise who remarked that she refuses to own a sewing machine, because she will not have anything in her home that produces guilt. I chuckled. And, then, I thought of this blog.

It creates guilt for me. I resolve, as I did in January, to make it awesome. To write regularly. To share recipes and books and crafts and design and ideas and happenings and so much more that would produce a truly fabulous, noteworthy blog. I mean, if I am going to do it, shouldn't I do it well?

But, then I don't do it. I do NOTHING with it, and instead of being okay with that I feel guilty. I mourn what I could have done but have not. Which leads me to do even less. I know; it IS pathetic.

In an effort to eliminate stressors and things that produce guilt in my life, I had resolved last month to shut down the blog. To throw in the towel.

And, then I started going through all my old posts from the last nearly 5 years to create a photo book for my girls, and I realized how glad I was that I had blogged. How happy I was that I recorded little happenings and posted pictures of our life.

And, I decided that my problem is not the blog. It is me. I need to be okay with having a mediocre blog. I need to give up on the idea of it being a great resource to others or showcasing all my ideas and creations, and just accept what is. I need to learn how to do this (and the rest of my life) with moderation -- and to be okay with it.

So, I am not going to quit blogging for good. I am just going to quit guilting instead. I am rescinding any promises to others and myself about doing it regularly or providing a variety of types of posts. I will write and post when I feel like it. And, I will be okay with it.

Or at least I will try.